Posted by Avis on February 09, 2004 at 16:45:47:
A pain that’s gnawing me from the inside,
And a solution that I cannot rely,
There is no water that can quench this burning,
No ice, no balm, just endless yearning,
For something that can satisfy,
For something that can fill the hole,
For something that can gratify,
And for something that can make me full.
This pain in me, I can’t define,
Can’t see, can’t read, can’t identify.
But it’s in me, and the presence is there,
And for a long time, I really didn’t care,
But now its huge, expanded fully,
Ripping me, tearing me, making me cry.
Every single day is a ten thousand k,
Running and hiding, from this fucking pain.
It took everything from me. It gave me no mercy,
This pain took me, beat me, and utterly submissed me.
My life is ruined. Just because of this pain.
Every day is filled with thunderclouds and rain.
Life now is just a fucking empty shell.
My life is forever bruised, but no one really can tell.
There’s nothing left to live for, but now there’s nothing left to lose.
So to crumple up and suffer is the only path that I can choose.