Posted by Punk4th on July 31, 2004 at 18:05:00:
White lies, no hope and a bleeding smile
Black eyes, cheeks soaked and a self-denial
Recaptured thoughts reveal the consequence
Of every single choice I`ve ever made
Of moral debts I`ve left unpaid
I stand here holding empty threats
Accompanied by past regrets
While questioned by the lies
Once told with honest eyes
Now showing me my past mistakes
And this time there is no escape
From what I have become
And all the stupid things I`ve done
I`m stuck in a repeating scene
Choking on my self-esteem
Still bound by ropes of change
Standing within shooting range
Of judging minds that love to hate
And all I have to do is wait
For blood......
To seal this twist of fate
And I wonder
Will I feel like this
Forever?
Will I ever feel like this
Again?
Dull knife, sharp pain and a dying tear
Numb life, drained vein and I`m struck by fear
Inject a moment`s pain
With hollow drops of liquid shame
Still addicted to the high
Watching hurt emotions die
I`ve felt it many times before
Relief is well worth dying for
And now it`s time to close blind eyes
To leave this broken paradise
One step through reality
Free from the shackles of mortality
I wonder if `I`ll feel more alive
After my first suicide
And I wonder
Will I feel like this
Forever?
Will I ever feel like this
Again?